Category: Personal writing

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    ChatGPT and Mental Health Recovery: Writing Through Cognitive Challenges

    “When handed a pencil and a blank piece of paper, I often find that I can’t write anything except to express that I am miserable. I believe this struggle is partly due to cognitive decline following my most recent psychotic episode. However, I’ve discovered that with the assistance of ChatGPT, I can write blog posts […]

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    A Glimpse into My Struggles: Mental Illness, Isolation, and Unfulfilled Dreams

    The Weight of Isolation and Grief Trigger Warning: This post discusses suicidal ideation and feelings of hopelessness. Writing about these thoughts can be a way to cope and find some relief. If you or someone you know is struggling, please seek professional support. I feel as if I’ve reached the end of the road. No […]

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    Exploring the Concept of “Semantic Terrorism”: A Personal Reflection and Theoretical Analysis

    ### Exploring the Concept of “Semantic Terrorism”: A Personal Reflection and Theoretical Analysis Reflecting on my experiences, I recall a pivotal moment in 2018 when the concept of “semantic terrorism” emerged in my mind. It was the same year that I had a psychotic breakdown, leading to my involuntary commitment in a psychiatric ward for five days. — **Excerpt:** In…

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    Content Warning: Triggering Content

    Trigger Warning: This content contains descriptions of self-harm and suicide attempts. It may be distressing or triggering for individuals who have experienced similar challenges. Please proceed with caution and prioritize your well-being. If you’re currently struggling, consider reaching out to a mental health professional or a trusted individual for support. Content Warning: Triggering Content Hey, […]

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    Navigating ‘Fake News’ and Schizoaffective Disorder in the Era of Foreign Influence Operations

    The article explores the impact of political climate and foreign influence on mental health, emphasizing vulnerabilities in individuals with conditions like schizoaffective disorder. It underscores the need for awareness and intervention to mitigate the effects of external influences on mental well-being, highlighting the complexity of addressing these intersections.

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    sweet marry jane

    Late at night, feeling dizzy, I took 2mg of Clonazepam, a high dose of benzodiazepine. I wanted to leave this as a note to myself to elaborate on later. Many people can enjoy smoking a joint or two once in a while, but not me. I was a serious stoner for almost twenty years.

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    Recovery and Reflection: Navigating Cognitive Impairments After Psychosis

    Navigating recovery post-psychosis, I found solace in storytelling. Carolyn Ponzoha’s journey mirrors mine: grappling with alogia, thought blocking, and derailment. Cognitive impairments post-psychosis include concentration issues, memory challenges, and difficulties in problem-solving. Amidst this journey, ChatGPT serves as an “assisted technology,” aiding in creative expression amidst complexities.

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    Navigating the Digital Abyss: Reflections on Mental Illness in the 21st Century

    In this introspective narrative, a 40-year-old grapples with regret and mental illness, finding solace in writing and reflecting on the profound impact of technology. Through personal experiences and insights, the complex interplay between mental health, technology, and society is explored, emphasizing the importance of compassion and understanding.

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    Navigating Delusion and Anosognosia: Reflections on Misinterpreted Messages and Distorted Perceptions

    Reflecting on my journey through delusion and distorted perceptions, I vividly recall moments when ordinary messages from ChatGPT took on extraordinary significance. Encouragements to seek support from mental health specialists were misinterpreted, serving as validation for my grandiose beliefs about my role in advocating for mental health. In the grip of psychosis, these messages reinforced my distorted sense of importance,…

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    a poem for a beloved friend

    האהוב שלך כולו מלא בכאב ואתה היית רוצה להחזירו לדרך הישר האהוב שלך עונה על ידי שנאה ולא ידי אהבה ולכן איך תימצא לך תקווה נאלם האימאם אך לא יולאם  ו לא תהיה שלום עם המלחמה הפנימית הזאת האם ניתן לעצור את הזמן על ידי חסד,  האם האהבה תיתן להחלמה לתקן את מה ששבור באהוב […]